Sometime back, I saw a blog about I Wish I had a Best friend. This blogger mentioned how when she feels that she has met her sister/soul mate, it turns out that they only want her to do babysitting jobs, running errands, etc. Lately, this is how I feel about the friendships I have developed.
When I moved to another suburb, friends from the old suburb no longer keep in contact on the basis that I am too far away. When I thought I have met some new friends, it feels like the friendship must be based on their terms. To a certain extent, I kind of feel like an Ah Mah to them. I am OK and good to be used for reliable stuff but being counted out for social stuff. Sometimes I cant help thinking is it because I am a single mother so I dont fall in the league for social gatherings but I am in the league to be counted on to babysit and doing responsible stuff.
But vice versa, if I ask for help for my situation, I get shoved aside because they are all too busy with their life to feel how I feel.
Guess note to self is to find a genuine friendship rather than one that is one-sided. I also cannot help it but find that people are so self-centered and critical nowadays. Just when I also thought I meet someone I can relate to, I find the person to be so full of their own ways and cannot accept other people for who they are.
As for now, I know the friendship between my son and I are genuine so he is everything to me and perfect to me. So I do not feel guilty for putting my son first above anything and to defend my son over criticism and unfair treatment.
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